the start of my love story

WINTER FORMAL: By the Light of the Moon

December 17, 2011.... did I just meet the love of my life??

This day was greeted with much, much anticipation. It was going to be the last dance of my high school career so I wanted it to be amazing! I found the most beautiful dress in the world and I was in a group of my closest friends so I knew I would have some form of fun but I was so nervous of my date...

Explanation: Throughout the weeks leading up to the dance I was stressing out about who to ask because I wanted it to be special. I still had no idea who to ask so I approached my friend Carlie and she told me to ask her cousin Cade. I agreed to maybe meet him and see... turns out Cade and I have known each other since 6th grade through 9th grade but then he moved and we lost contact!! I thought this was pretty random but honestly didn't think much of it, but I finally got around to asking him and he said yes.. :) little did I know that I was stepping into my own book of a wonderful love story!

Anyways, my reason for being so worried was that Carlie warned me about Cade and she told me that he had a girlfriend, but he was a very big flirt and he would act like he liked me but I just had to stay careful so I wouldn't get hurt! This is mostly why I was so nervous because I didn't want to feel like he liked me and then get hurt in the end....

To shorten this already lengthy story.... the whole entire day, from beginning to end... he made me feel like a princess.. I was convinced I was in cloud nine the whole night. Each time our hands touch each other I think my heart stopped. I felt like I was in a dream, dreaming my fairy tale because this couldn't be for real. Everything felt right but I was still holding back and staying shy because I knew he was taken and I didn't want to get in the middle of that... but it was so entirely hard

not to fall for him. . .

We finally arrived at the dance I was expecting to let loose and for those stupid butterflies to leave me alone but they didn't and I was still shy... but we finally had a chance to slow dance together and it was perfect! We just flowed together... he laughed at my jokes and I laughed at his. He smiled so big and brightly I couldn't help but to share mine with him... I never would of known that I would be looking at that smile for months after...

So after the dance we went back to Cades house for some cookies and a movie. He kept making moves on me but I just kept shrugging him off because I wasn't going to be the cause of his break up. Finally near the end of the night he took me outside and explained to me that number 1: NO he didn't have a girlfriend (in my mind: YESSS). Number 2: He thought I was beautiful (this left me completely speachless). Number 3: He liked me!! (I literally pinched myself because I was sure I was dreaming!) So by the end of the night we shared our magical first kiss and I know its bad to kiss on the first date but it was just so perfect and I felt like as though I had been kissing him my whole life!

Funny memory: Cade and I decided to climb to the top of this jungle gym/ bridge thingy to take a picture... well i'm not the most graceful person but coming down from this thing was a mess and I almost fell but this handsome man was right there to catch me when I was falling... for him!

lets rewind

NEW YEARS!!.... 2012.. lets hope the world isn't ending because mine is just beginning!

i chose this day to surround myself with some of my closest friends and obviously the love of my life!! we had so much fun pigging out on food, singing songs, dancing out little hearts out, and my favorite... me new years kisses and sparklers! i told cade at the beginning of the night that he wasn't allowed to kiss me until the clock struck 12 o'clock just to mess with him. i don't think i've ever seen him so impatient, but it made the entire night fun and the long awaited kiss was magical! it was defiantly a night to remember! finally it was midnight and a kiss was shared between two lovers, finally the butterflies that were getting restless could escape from inside my belly and finally we could make a memory in our lives book. and also we could now use the life time supply of sparklers that we had accumulated.

cade and i tried so hard to capture just one fethching picture of us with two sparklers but we failed.. miserably.. but honestly that was the most memorable new years ever because of that! once we would get one to light we couldn't get the other one to light. then that would one would go out right as the other one would light but finally...

SUCCESS :) we were able to get one! probably the best night of my life so far! i'm so thankful to be able to share it with cade. he is such a blessing to me and i love every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every month, and hopefully every year i get to spend with him! but even better hopefully i get to share an eternity with him!

whats new about me?

so its been a while since i've posted anything but.... i recently graduated early from high school so i have loads of time on my hands now. i decided to start posting again about my new journey, my new life and pretty much the new me. i'm dating the most amazing man in the world. . . cade koozer. he is obviously part of the new me and my new journey. he is my best friend and a huge part of my life. without him absolutely nothing makes sense. i've been playing the guitar more and started writing new music. finding my voice was difficult and quite an experience but i did it and i'm no longer afraid. i can't wait to step into this new phase of my life and i can't wait to see what the future is bringing my. college... marriage... babies.... BAHH its so exciting!